Monthly Archives: June 2011

Bittersweet news

Dear loved ones,

I don’t consider myself to be a writer, but today I just can’t seem to contain the words; they need to flow out of me. I pray that God would take our words and our experiences, meager as they are, and use them for His purposes.

Almost exactly three years ago, my husband was diagnosed with testicular cancer. It was one of the blackest days of my life. Our God and our community were so faithful to uphold us as Clay went through chemo, two surgeries, confusion, fear, and the loss of some of our dreams. It was a place of huge growth for us, but still a place that we were eager to leave behind.

This week Clay had his follow up CT scan, and today we went to his appointment with Dr. Yeilding. Aside from a few lingering side effects from the surgery (mild lightheadedness/dizziness), Clay has been doing great. Dr. Yeilding said that the scan showed no evidence of metastatic disease. I said, “So would you say he’s cancer free?” Dr. Yeilding replied, “I would say that he’s not only cancer free, but cured.” We have waited so long to hear that, but as much as we thank our gracious Father, we were reminded today that medicine is not where our hope lies. A member of our church family went home to heaven last night after years of battling cancer. And as Dr. Yeilding rejoiced with us about the news of Clay’s scan, he mentioned that another patient of his received a really poor prognosis. Although we don’t know this patient personally, or even know his name, he was also diagnosed with testicular cancer and Dr. Foster operated on him. He underwent the same procedure, at the same time, as Clay did; but his cancer was a different cell type and surgery and treatment aren’t working. It was really humbling to hear that another young man with Clay’s diagnosis probably would not survive.

I’ve been thinking a lot today about the fact that our life here on earth is really only “the title page” as C.S. Lewis said. It is amazing to think that our church member was here yesterday, suffering, and is now whole, and in perfect communion with the One she was created for. I don’t understand why my sweet husband was spared, and so many others aren’t. I don’t understand God’s plan so much of the time, but I rejoice in the fact that He has conquered death, through His son’s sacrifice.

“He will swallow up death forever, and the Lord GOD will wipe away tears from all faces, and the reproach of his people He will take away from all the earth, for the Lord has spoken.” Isaiah 25:8

Amen and amen! All praise to our Savior King.

Your prayers have sustained us over the past three years. We thank God for you all, and love you-